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Hurray!  Lost three pounds this week which makes for a total of eight pounds lost!

I must admit that this is the first time I have actually dieted correctly.  No fad, no quick loss program, no insane exercise program - just swapping out the junk for the good stuff.

I also joined a new gym this week. If you have a Lifetime Fitness in your area I highly recommend it!  It similiar to LA Fitness/Sport.  You could literally spend all day in there between all the exercise stuff, rock climbing wall, indoor/outdoor pools, family activities, cafe, spa, etc.  It’s also open 24/7 so it totally works with my crazy travel schedule. 

Anyway, three weeks down, eight pounds down and I’m looking forward to next Monday already!!

Well, last night (in fact, this week) was not the best for me.  I did great on my eating until last night. One bite of cake turned into two - yes two!!!- pieces (plus a cookie!).  I’m really disappointed but have decided not to cry over spilt milk (or cake as it may be).  This week was also a little light on exercise for me so I’ve really given myself the double whammy. Monday is weigh in for me so I’ll see what the scale has to say about my indiscretions.

So, here I am with a new resolve and new focus.  I really feel so much better when I’m eating right and exercising. In fact, this morning I felt a little sluggish waking up from my post sugar party.  I am trying to concentrate on that sluggish feeling and noting it in my memory to give myself a ”reverse Pavlov’s dog response”.  I am also concentrating on the fact that twelve hours from now when I am fully of healthy, clean food I will feel soooooo much better!!!

End of Week Two and two more unwanted pounds - yea!!! 

 I’m really pleased with the weight loss but I think I could have done even better.  The last few days I have been flirting with diet disaster - the dreaded “just one bite”.  Yesterday it was just a few of my daughters gummy bears and a few bites of a cinnamon bread with icing (OK - almost a whole piece of that!).  Combine that with eating two meals out this week which (even though I tried to control what I was eating) were not diet friendly.

My goal this week is to really steer clear of doing the one bite stuff.  In the past one bite could trigger an all out food fest. So while I’m happy that I didn’t “go all the way”, I know that one bite is a potential pit fall for me. 

I am definately on a roll.  I talked myself “away from the edge” the other night and today I didn’t give in when all signs were flashing “JUST EAT”.  I had to travel on business today so I made sure I ate before I left for the airport.  Of course my flight got delayed so I was tempted to grab lunch at the airport - never a good move.  But since I wasn’t super hungry I decided that I would just wait until I got to my destination to get something.  I was delayed longer than expected so I was starving by the time I got off the plane.  To make matters worse, the city I’m traveling in was feature in the airline magazine and some of the great restaurants were profiled in excrutiating detail. Of course my knee jerk reaction was to just roll through the nearest fast food place on my way to my hotel.   I gave myself every excuse in the book - I’m running late, I need something quick and easy, blah, blah, blah.

But I took a step back, collected my thoughts and resolve and decided to go to a supermarket so I could pick up something diet friendly (and healthy) to have at the hotel - carrots, banana, apple.  I even went one step further and decided to hit an organic market (damn, I’m really getting wild now!!!).  

Now my next hurdle is dinner tonight - I have to dine with clients at a French style restaurant that is absolutely delicious.  I have preview the menu and decided the worse of all evils is probably the salmon (Salmon Soufflé Alla Parmigiano - Fresh salmon filet topped with a parmesan and roasted shallot soufflé, served with sautéed fresh spinach ).  My plan is just to eat half of what ever is put in front of me, see if they can do the sauce on the side, scrape off the souffle, forgo the bread, only one glass of wine (hey, I can’t do it all!), and no dessert.   Lord only knows how I will put this on my food journal.    I hate to ask for special preparation in front of clients for reasons unbeknownst to me!!!  We’ll see how I do………………………

I feel like I am about to eat everything in the house.  I did a body check……. hunger pains? No.  Eaten lately? Yes.  Thirsty? No, just drank water.  Bored? A little.   Just wanna eat something good?  Yes.

So here’s the part where I give myself a pep talk, envision my thinner body and think about how bad I will feel five minutes after I indulge in something. Because really, it’s going to taste good for a couple of minutes but then I will spend the rest of the night regretting eating it.  And what will I have to show for it?  A momentary bit of pleasure that lasts just that long - a moment.

OK - I think I’m past it. 

Week one and I’m three down, ten to go for my mini goal!  I was so excited to see the scale budge this morning - especially since I had a few questionable days! 

I’m really trying to just weight myself once a week.  I’m a little bit of a scale junkie which is sometimes my downfall when dieting.  There have been times that I have gotten on and off the scale several times a day and then become discouraged when it fluctuates.  Of course that gives me the perfect excuse to eat because “obviously it doesn’t matter whether I diet or not”.   The new me is trying to think of the scale as Christmas morning.  If I am good all week I just may get a big present on Christmas morning!

 So I begin Week 2 with confirmed resolve to eat right and exercise.  Hurray!!!

Here I am again at another meeting for my job.  The pharmaceutical industry is famous for hiring “Barbie” and “Ken” prototypes as sales reps and, back in the day, I might have fit the mold. But now, coming to these meetings are like an exercise in self loathing and feeling inferior.  Nothing feels right standing next to hundreds of size two reps with fake boobs and spray tans.    To make matters work, these meeting are also an exercise in dining on fine foods, treats, and tons of alcohol. Yes, this industry knows how to treat it’s employees right!!!

 So, enough belly aching!!!!  What am I going to do to make a difference? How am I going to battle the evils of foods, blows to the self esteem, and pools of booze? 

 I have started out right. After checking into my room, I promptly popped in an exercise video and did a great 50 minute work out.  I am passing up the “reception” tonight in favor of a bowl of chicken noodle soup and great movie.

Tomorrow starts a new day and a new challenge.  I am resolving - right here and right now - that I will not dipped into the parade of treats they whisk into our meeting rooms. Instead, I plan to stash an apple in my purse and plan to drink a ton of water.  My mantra is “good choices” “good choices” “good choices”.  Lastly, I resolved not to compare myself to others.  Ya know why?  I’m a nice and kind person.  I will not let my weight define me or put a price on my self worth.  Period and end of story!!